Why do people get things that other people deserve more of? My fucking sister gets to go to school, and she doesn't even want to do the course that she applied for. AND I DON'T AND I'M STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL. I'm supposed to be graduating this year but I'm being held back a year since I missed so much school.
Life is so unfair.
It really is...
The other day my sister stated she sometimes wonders why we're in Australia, cause it seems we pay bills all the time here. Qurl I would rather be here than in Singapore. Australia will forever be my home. Can't my sister go back and give me my life back? This sounds super selfish... but I feel as if she's taking away what is mine. She's is totally not independent for a 21 year old. Seriously.
I would rather be living in my own apartment with my dream dog and invite friends over whenever and just be... chill.
ugh okay I'm going to do some blogilates so ease the stress away. >:(
Showing posts with label fitness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fitness. Show all posts
Thursday, 28 March 2013
Thursday, 7 March 2013
Thursday Trouble boooo
I got so pissed tonight. Pissed as in ANGRY. We bought pre-marinated Tandoori Chicken so I just shoved in the oven for an hour. For the side dish, my sister requested honey carrots but I was thinking of doing something Indian-y and tried to made Daal! It was...an okay success, nothing too big, but it was my first try! (plus it wasn't my dad's recipe) It took quite awhile to make too. So as the Daal was finishing, my sister asked for the carrots. And well, I didn't make the carrots cause how many side dishes was I supposed to make? She got angry and basically gave me the emotionless expression she always does (along with her black heart) and didn't even try the Daal.
Sister dear, I got 2 words to say to you. FUCK YOU.
Atleast try it! I thought it would be a nice accompaniment. I still can't believe she's 20. Did you know in total my pay from my holiday job: about $900 , I SPENT ON HER AND ME. Because my dad couldn't send over money. I bought groceries, junk food etc. sigh...and it's all gone. If my sister worked when she was in Singapore (She whined when my dad told her to get her job) then we would have more money and I wouldn't have to spend on both of us! May I remind you I'm 16. Responsibility? She has none.
UGH I'm probably riled up because of all the built up stress. I have yet to go to school and I spend everyday at home with my cat until she returns from school. She also asks me if we have a particular meat or veggie or spice at home and I say I'm not sure. She expects me to know since I live at home 24/7. Again, FUCK YOU. I don't have a choice.
The only thing I can do now is find a job so I can have something new in my life and interact with more people. I have a job interview on Tues, so I am hoping it goes well.
I really cannot wait until I have enough money to rent my own apartment and get a husky friend . Or more realistically for now, I can't wait until whole family come over so I don't have to interact with this sarcastic, heartless demon all the time. (Sometimes when she talks to me angrily/sarcastically, I feel like shooting myself.)
Man, I just needed to blow off some steam. I'm just... desperate for my life to continue normally! Like a normal teenage girl who gets to go to school atleast ....
ANYWAYS
I've been doing the blogilates workout calendar and has it been a killer! Great workouts by none other than Miss Cassey Ho and I can see some small changes. I wonder what I'll look like in the long run!
I should probably go to sleep now. I need to wake up at 6am for my mile run!
Sister dear, I got 2 words to say to you. FUCK YOU.
Atleast try it! I thought it would be a nice accompaniment. I still can't believe she's 20. Did you know in total my pay from my holiday job: about $900 , I SPENT ON HER AND ME. Because my dad couldn't send over money. I bought groceries, junk food etc. sigh...and it's all gone. If my sister worked when she was in Singapore (She whined when my dad told her to get her job) then we would have more money and I wouldn't have to spend on both of us! May I remind you I'm 16. Responsibility? She has none.
UGH I'm probably riled up because of all the built up stress. I have yet to go to school and I spend everyday at home with my cat until she returns from school. She also asks me if we have a particular meat or veggie or spice at home and I say I'm not sure. She expects me to know since I live at home 24/7. Again, FUCK YOU. I don't have a choice.
The only thing I can do now is find a job so I can have something new in my life and interact with more people. I have a job interview on Tues, so I am hoping it goes well.
I really cannot wait until I have enough money to rent my own apartment and get a husky friend . Or more realistically for now, I can't wait until whole family come over so I don't have to interact with this sarcastic, heartless demon all the time. (Sometimes when she talks to me angrily/sarcastically, I feel like shooting myself.)
Man, I just needed to blow off some steam. I'm just... desperate for my life to continue normally! Like a normal teenage girl who gets to go to school atleast ....
ANYWAYS
I've been doing the blogilates workout calendar and has it been a killer! Great workouts by none other than Miss Cassey Ho and I can see some small changes. I wonder what I'll look like in the long run!
I should probably go to sleep now. I need to wake up at 6am for my mile run!
Monday, 4 March 2013
What I love about myself
So according to Cass from Blogilates, I have to write things that I love about myself.
Okay er.
Hmmm.
Okay er.
Hmmm.
- My Eyes
- My Curly Hair
- I can draw witty cartoons hehe
- My train of thought is more logical, though sometimes can be driven by emotions
- OCD on cleanliness ( This is sort of a perk since I won't live in filth?)
- My baking skillz
- I'm a good analyser
- I am starting to extend my personal bubble
- I do make good muffins/cupcakes
- My weird sense of humour hohohoho
- My desire to be a better person
- My stubborn streak and determination
- My imagination
- My will to be successful when I'm older
Okay I think that's it. I had to think for awhile. Well it's more than I thought!!
#MarchMakeover
Sunday, 24 February 2013
Kickstart to healthiness
Today was Day 1 of starting blogilates for the year. It's quite late then my intended resolution start, but nonetheless I have started it! And boy, was it tough. My ab strength has somewhat deteriorated. (SOB) The moves that I could do last year was now quite hard to do. BOOOOO HISSS I now have to put in extra effort to get fit! That includes eating healthier!
Speaking of which, I'm right now preparing Avocado and tomato spread on wholemeal bread with boiled broccoli and egg! I plan to turn it into a lifestyle. I want to have a future that does not include obesity related health problems.
Ofcourse I will have to have some YOLO meals I mean come on, you're talking to the girl that puts 3 sugars in her tea.
It's going to be tough guys, but I will get there! >:D
Speaking of which, I'm right now preparing Avocado and tomato spread on wholemeal bread with boiled broccoli and egg! I plan to turn it into a lifestyle. I want to have a future that does not include obesity related health problems.
Ofcourse I will have to have some YOLO meals I mean come on, you're talking to the girl that puts 3 sugars in her tea.
It's going to be tough guys, but I will get there! >:D
Saturday, 23 February 2013
Home
It's been well over a week since I got home. To Melbourne that is! I'm trying my best to get a job and I'm going to kick start my fitness regime on Monday since my fast internet is back on. It's time for me to take my lifestyle seriously. That includes sleeping early (erk) , eating healthy, exercising regularly and being positive and happy.
You know, I started out this year quite.... out of plan. I was angry. Angry at my friendships. Angry at money issues. Angry at society. Well... I was just an angry person. I felt unappreciated and as if my life wasn't going anywhere. You have no idea how desperate I am to go to school. I want to be around people my age and have that usual pre-test stress (lololol) . Sounds cheesy... but it's been awhile since I've been to school. Nowadays... I just feel alone.
But I need to change. I need to get myself out there. Everything will fall into place. It just takes time. Somedays I don't feel like waiting, and that's where I need someone to reassure me.
Right now, only I can reassure myself.
You know, I started out this year quite.... out of plan. I was angry. Angry at my friendships. Angry at money issues. Angry at society. Well... I was just an angry person. I felt unappreciated and as if my life wasn't going anywhere. You have no idea how desperate I am to go to school. I want to be around people my age and have that usual pre-test stress (lololol) . Sounds cheesy... but it's been awhile since I've been to school. Nowadays... I just feel alone.
But I need to change. I need to get myself out there. Everything will fall into place. It just takes time. Somedays I don't feel like waiting, and that's where I need someone to reassure me.
Right now, only I can reassure myself.
Tuesday, 1 January 2013
2k13
We didn't die of the supposed Mayan Apocalypse.
The gang rape victim in Delhi didn't survive. (RIP)
Gangnam Style reached a billion views.
A teenage girl in Pakistan got shot for being active in role of fighting for education for girls.
A truckload of viral videos have circled around the net.
And another year goes by.
Pretty sure other fucked up shit happened but I can't remember trolol
Anyways, I started the New Year with a bang yesterday.At midnight, I watched the fireworks from the Singapore flyer with my bro and dad whilst we ate Popeyes chicken (lol) . I did 45 mins of HIIT cardio the following morning and ate healthily. And...I basically read fanfics and watched Pewdie and AllShamNoWow play games on Youtube hehe
Today I woke up and commenced by blogilates calendar! Which meant 15 push ups , followed by a series of cardio videos! And yes, I literally was sweating bullets. Like they say, sweat is just fat crying!
This #jaNEWary I aim to kick of my healthy regime. Which means YOLO meals are restricted to once a week.
My Resolutions:
- Make Healthier choices
- Complete the blogilates calendar up to Dec 2013
- Do my best in school
- Don't bother about unnecessary people
- Be more self confident
- Save money
- Learn a new language
- Be nicer to people, but not too nice if not they'll just take advantage of you hmph
.... I think that's it? Well I hope so cause that's quite abit of expectation.
Though, I hope that my family will be more fortunate this year and come up again.
Let's see where the Year of Snake takes us to.
The gang rape victim in Delhi didn't survive. (RIP)
Gangnam Style reached a billion views.
A teenage girl in Pakistan got shot for being active in role of fighting for education for girls.
A truckload of viral videos have circled around the net.
And another year goes by.
Pretty sure other fucked up shit happened but I can't remember trolol
Anyways, I started the New Year with a bang yesterday.At midnight, I watched the fireworks from the Singapore flyer with my bro and dad whilst we ate Popeyes chicken (lol) . I did 45 mins of HIIT cardio the following morning and ate healthily. And...I basically read fanfics and watched Pewdie and AllShamNoWow play games on Youtube hehe
Today I woke up and commenced by blogilates calendar! Which meant 15 push ups , followed by a series of cardio videos! And yes, I literally was sweating bullets. Like they say, sweat is just fat crying!
This #jaNEWary I aim to kick of my healthy regime. Which means YOLO meals are restricted to once a week.
My Resolutions:
- Make Healthier choices
- Complete the blogilates calendar up to Dec 2013
- Do my best in school
- Don't bother about unnecessary people
- Be more self confident
- Save money
- Learn a new language
- Be nicer to people, but not too nice if not they'll just take advantage of you hmph
.... I think that's it? Well I hope so cause that's quite abit of expectation.
Though, I hope that my family will be more fortunate this year and come up again.
Let's see where the Year of Snake takes us to.
Wednesday, 5 December 2012
A Goal
Well it's 2 am, and this , for me, is a usual time for random inspirational things to pop into my head.
Since I'm into fitness these pass few weeks, I have decided to make a fitness goal.
Which is:
10 perfect regular push ups to be achieved by the end of February 2013
Not the ones that I usually do, where my knees touch the floor. No.
I'm going for the proper one.
This has a deeper meaning in it, which is an increase of upper body strength that I'll have to work for!
I can do this!
Since I'm into fitness these pass few weeks, I have decided to make a fitness goal.
Which is:
10 perfect regular push ups to be achieved by the end of February 2013
Not the ones that I usually do, where my knees touch the floor. No.
I'm going for the proper one.
This has a deeper meaning in it, which is an increase of upper body strength that I'll have to work for!
I can do this!
Saturday, 1 December 2012
#DashingDecember
I woke up this morning to my annoying alarm from my phone. What time? Well I set it 9:30 am. And it's a Sunday. You might wonder why dis hoe is waking up considerably early for a lazy sunday. I guess I wanted to train myself not to sleep in? (tough luck) Especially when I slept at 3am earlier on .
I slowly propped myself up and instinctively reached to the nearest contraption that was less than an arm's length. My trusty macbook. aka Nick. I begun my routine by check social networking sites (ugh such a hoe) and lastly, I checked my email. The first message was from a seemingly trustworthy company telling me I'm one of the 20 winners to have won first prize! You see, I'm not one that has the luck of the irish, so "winning" has not become part of my vocabulary. Eyeing the email suspiciously, I decided not to venture into unchartered waters and straight to delete folder it went!
Now, the next email was something I was looking forward to. It was from Cassey Ho aka blogilates founder. It was the December workout calendar! I'm super determined to do this and I really do aim to have a toned body! I'll make sure to track my progress here, if anyone's interested. I went out in shorts yesterday and gosh damn, my legs felt... toner? As I passed by reflective surfaces of shop windows, I could really see the difference! I felt more confident. It really made my day. I'm still a long way from over, but I'm prepared to "train insane, or remain the same!"
The smell of bacon is beckoning me (time for some protein!) and I'm off to continue my Harvest Moon adventure.
I slowly propped myself up and instinctively reached to the nearest contraption that was less than an arm's length. My trusty macbook. aka Nick. I begun my routine by check social networking sites (ugh such a hoe) and lastly, I checked my email. The first message was from a seemingly trustworthy company telling me I'm one of the 20 winners to have won first prize! You see, I'm not one that has the luck of the irish, so "winning" has not become part of my vocabulary. Eyeing the email suspiciously, I decided not to venture into unchartered waters and straight to delete folder it went!
Now, the next email was something I was looking forward to. It was from Cassey Ho aka blogilates founder. It was the December workout calendar! I'm super determined to do this and I really do aim to have a toned body! I'll make sure to track my progress here, if anyone's interested. I went out in shorts yesterday and gosh damn, my legs felt... toner? As I passed by reflective surfaces of shop windows, I could really see the difference! I felt more confident. It really made my day. I'm still a long way from over, but I'm prepared to "train insane, or remain the same!"
The smell of bacon is beckoning me (time for some protein!) and I'm off to continue my Harvest Moon adventure.
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