Why do people get things that other people deserve more of? My fucking sister gets to go to school, and she doesn't even want to do the course that she applied for. AND I DON'T AND I'M STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL. I'm supposed to be graduating this year but I'm being held back a year since I missed so much school.
Life is so unfair.
It really is...
The other day my sister stated she sometimes wonders why we're in Australia, cause it seems we pay bills all the time here. Qurl I would rather be here than in Singapore. Australia will forever be my home. Can't my sister go back and give me my life back? This sounds super selfish... but I feel as if she's taking away what is mine. She's is totally not independent for a 21 year old. Seriously.
I would rather be living in my own apartment with my dream dog and invite friends over whenever and just be... chill.
ugh okay I'm going to do some blogilates so ease the stress away. >:(
Thursday 28 March 2013
Thursday 7 March 2013
Thursday Trouble boooo
I got so pissed tonight. Pissed as in ANGRY. We bought pre-marinated Tandoori Chicken so I just shoved in the oven for an hour. For the side dish, my sister requested honey carrots but I was thinking of doing something Indian-y and tried to made Daal! It was...an okay success, nothing too big, but it was my first try! (plus it wasn't my dad's recipe) It took quite awhile to make too. So as the Daal was finishing, my sister asked for the carrots. And well, I didn't make the carrots cause how many side dishes was I supposed to make? She got angry and basically gave me the emotionless expression she always does (along with her black heart) and didn't even try the Daal.
Sister dear, I got 2 words to say to you. FUCK YOU.
Atleast try it! I thought it would be a nice accompaniment. I still can't believe she's 20. Did you know in total my pay from my holiday job: about $900 , I SPENT ON HER AND ME. Because my dad couldn't send over money. I bought groceries, junk food etc. sigh...and it's all gone. If my sister worked when she was in Singapore (She whined when my dad told her to get her job) then we would have more money and I wouldn't have to spend on both of us! May I remind you I'm 16. Responsibility? She has none.
UGH I'm probably riled up because of all the built up stress. I have yet to go to school and I spend everyday at home with my cat until she returns from school. She also asks me if we have a particular meat or veggie or spice at home and I say I'm not sure. She expects me to know since I live at home 24/7. Again, FUCK YOU. I don't have a choice.
The only thing I can do now is find a job so I can have something new in my life and interact with more people. I have a job interview on Tues, so I am hoping it goes well.
I really cannot wait until I have enough money to rent my own apartment and get a husky friend . Or more realistically for now, I can't wait until whole family come over so I don't have to interact with this sarcastic, heartless demon all the time. (Sometimes when she talks to me angrily/sarcastically, I feel like shooting myself.)
Man, I just needed to blow off some steam. I'm just... desperate for my life to continue normally! Like a normal teenage girl who gets to go to school atleast ....
ANYWAYS
I've been doing the blogilates workout calendar and has it been a killer! Great workouts by none other than Miss Cassey Ho and I can see some small changes. I wonder what I'll look like in the long run!
I should probably go to sleep now. I need to wake up at 6am for my mile run!
Sister dear, I got 2 words to say to you. FUCK YOU.
Atleast try it! I thought it would be a nice accompaniment. I still can't believe she's 20. Did you know in total my pay from my holiday job: about $900 , I SPENT ON HER AND ME. Because my dad couldn't send over money. I bought groceries, junk food etc. sigh...and it's all gone. If my sister worked when she was in Singapore (She whined when my dad told her to get her job) then we would have more money and I wouldn't have to spend on both of us! May I remind you I'm 16. Responsibility? She has none.
UGH I'm probably riled up because of all the built up stress. I have yet to go to school and I spend everyday at home with my cat until she returns from school. She also asks me if we have a particular meat or veggie or spice at home and I say I'm not sure. She expects me to know since I live at home 24/7. Again, FUCK YOU. I don't have a choice.
The only thing I can do now is find a job so I can have something new in my life and interact with more people. I have a job interview on Tues, so I am hoping it goes well.
I really cannot wait until I have enough money to rent my own apartment and get a husky friend . Or more realistically for now, I can't wait until whole family come over so I don't have to interact with this sarcastic, heartless demon all the time. (Sometimes when she talks to me angrily/sarcastically, I feel like shooting myself.)
Man, I just needed to blow off some steam. I'm just... desperate for my life to continue normally! Like a normal teenage girl who gets to go to school atleast ....
ANYWAYS
I've been doing the blogilates workout calendar and has it been a killer! Great workouts by none other than Miss Cassey Ho and I can see some small changes. I wonder what I'll look like in the long run!
I should probably go to sleep now. I need to wake up at 6am for my mile run!
Monday 4 March 2013
What I love about myself
So according to Cass from Blogilates, I have to write things that I love about myself.
Okay er.
Hmmm.
Okay er.
Hmmm.
- My Eyes
- My Curly Hair
- I can draw witty cartoons hehe
- My train of thought is more logical, though sometimes can be driven by emotions
- OCD on cleanliness ( This is sort of a perk since I won't live in filth?)
- My baking skillz
- I'm a good analyser
- I am starting to extend my personal bubble
- I do make good muffins/cupcakes
- My weird sense of humour hohohoho
- My desire to be a better person
- My stubborn streak and determination
- My imagination
- My will to be successful when I'm older
Okay I think that's it. I had to think for awhile. Well it's more than I thought!!
#MarchMakeover
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