Perseverance

Wow okay I just had a mind blank on how to spell perseverance!(It took me 5 times what even)

Anyways, we are progressing along with the year, since June is arriving in a few days time! Time really does fly. My Dad emailed me my letter of acceptance from Collingwood College (squeal) and I am so excited/nervous! I haven't been to school in like a year. I wonder how socially awkward I'll be... Otherwise, I am determined to do my best right through to when I finish my Year 12 exams! I need to score 99 or higher so I can get a scholarship to Melbourne Uni! Ganbatte! ("Do your best!") I will succeed to fullfil my dream of becoming a doctor!!

I wonder how I'll do with juggling school and 2 jobs. Challenge accepted. This means less time at obsessing over anime xD Some people do this anime as nonsense, but there's some that really relate to you and hits close to home. There's a few animes where I've cried my eyes out and laughed like there's no tomorrow. I don't know... it gives me comfort during these tough times. My most favourite animes have got to be: Fruits Basket [ ALL TIME FAVE THIS ONE MESSES WITH YOU EMOTIONALLY] - The manga and anime are both amazing.

1. Ouran High School Host Club [You will basically laugh your ass off and your shipper heart will go cray] - This was one of the first anime I've watched and I LOVE IT. It's truly a must watch.
2. Hakuoki [OKAY THIS ONE WILL MAKE YOUR HEART ACHE] - Ugh this show really makes you have all types of feels. Though it's quite a historical anime (we're talking about the samurai period here aka Shinsengumi), the story line is fabulous. It was originally an Otome game , but I do believe it appeals to all ages. It's reverse harem, so you know there's a few guys that one girl, but it's not too soppy but the budding feelings are really cute. BE WARNED THAT THERE ARE DEATH SCENES THAT WILL RIP YOUR HEART OUT. But really it's a must watch! There's 3 seasons plus 6 OVAs and I'm awaiting for the movie to come out in August 2013! Saitou Hajime is my love <3
3. Kimi ni Todoke- The romance is very sweet and cute. The protagonist is an outcast because of the way she looks (They call here Sadako, from the ring, but her name's Sawako) but she's just an innocent, nice girl who wants to be accepted. Ofcourse, there's the nice popular guy who brings her out of her misery! There's 2 seasons and the third episode of the 1st season made be bawl lololol

These are just a few, I've also watched La Corda D'oro, Hiiro no Kakera, Special A, Kaichou wa Maid-sama! , Uta no Prince sama maji love 1000% /2000% etc.

I'm in the midst of watching Chihayafuru and it's so god damn good! I'm about to finish watching 1st season and then I'll be off to season 2! Watch it yo!

My job at the video rental store is fairly easy, just have to scan, sort dvds and serve customers using the cash register. Though sometimes I get jittery, like I panic because I'm handling money and the customers watching me! Gah! But I just have to get used to it ! One of managers is really nice to me and often teases me? But meh, it's a relax job!

My blogilates regime has been going good. My core is as strong as ever and I can do more than 10 proper push ups! I can feel the muscle growing! Hahah unfortunately it shows on the scale, I went from 64kg to 67kg! That's okay though, once the fat is gone, the scales will lower. I'm also feeling so much more fitter! Cassey (aka blogilates creator) recently blogged about doing a diet bet! POPsters have to put in $25 and if we lose 4% of our body weight from June 3-30 , we can get our $25 back plus the share of those who didn't meet the goal!  GONNA DO IT! :D

Oh! I also made a Savings Jar a few days ago and whatever goes inside will contribute to my end of Year 12 trip to Europe and Japan!! Can't stop the travel bug inside of me :3 Also will be using it for games (Hakuoki PSP game pls) , maybe a car, university stuff like books. So determined!

Off to do some sorting of documents now whilst I wait for my sis to bring back Gnocchi!~~~~~~

I really don't understand

Why do people get things that other people deserve more of? My fucking sister gets to go to school, and she doesn't even want to do the course that she applied for. AND I DON'T AND I'M STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL. I'm supposed to be graduating this year but I'm being held back a year since I missed so much school.

Life is so unfair.
It really is...

The other day my sister stated she sometimes wonders why we're in Australia, cause it seems we pay bills all the time here. Qurl I would rather be here than in Singapore. Australia will forever be my home. Can't my sister go back and give me my life back? This sounds super selfish... but I feel as if she's taking away what is mine. She's is totally not independent for a 21 year old. Seriously.

I would rather be living in my own apartment with my dream dog and invite friends over whenever and just be... chill.

ugh okay I'm going to do some blogilates so ease the stress away. >:(

Thursday Trouble boooo

I got so pissed tonight. Pissed as in ANGRY. We bought pre-marinated Tandoori Chicken so I just shoved in the oven for an hour. For the side dish, my sister requested honey carrots but I was thinking of doing something Indian-y and tried to made Daal! It was...an okay success, nothing too big, but it was my first try! (plus it wasn't my dad's recipe) It took quite awhile to make too. So as the Daal was finishing, my sister asked for the carrots. And well, I didn't make the carrots cause how many side dishes was I supposed to make? She got angry and basically gave me the emotionless expression she always does (along with her black heart) and didn't even try the Daal.

Sister dear, I got 2 words to say to you. FUCK YOU.

Atleast try it! I thought it would be a nice accompaniment. I still can't believe she's 20. Did you know in total my pay from my holiday job: about $900 , I SPENT ON HER AND ME. Because my dad couldn't send over money. I bought groceries, junk food etc. sigh...and it's all gone. If my sister worked when she was in Singapore (She whined when my dad told her to get her job) then we would have more money and I wouldn't have to spend on both of us! May I remind you I'm 16. Responsibility? She has none.

UGH I'm probably riled up because of all the built up stress. I have yet to go to school and I spend everyday at home with my cat until she returns from school. She also asks me if we have a particular meat or veggie or spice at home and I say I'm not sure. She expects me to know since I live at home 24/7. Again, FUCK YOU. I don't have a choice.

The only thing I can do now is find a job so I can have something new in my life and interact with more people. I have a job interview on Tues, so I am hoping it goes well.

I really cannot wait until I have enough money to rent my own apartment and get a husky friend . Or more realistically for now, I can't wait until whole family come over so I don't have to interact with this sarcastic, heartless demon all the time. (Sometimes when she talks to me angrily/sarcastically, I feel like shooting myself.)

Man, I just needed to blow off some steam. I'm just... desperate for my life to continue normally! Like a normal teenage girl who gets to go to school atleast ....

ANYWAYS

I've been doing the blogilates workout calendar and has it been a killer! Great workouts by none other than Miss Cassey Ho and I can see some small changes. I wonder what I'll look like in the long run!

I should probably go to sleep now. I need to wake up at 6am for my mile run!

What I love about myself

So according to Cass from Blogilates, I have to write things that I love about myself.

Okay er.

Hmmm.

• My Eyes
• My Curly Hair
• I can draw witty cartoons hehe
• My train of thought is more logical, though sometimes can be driven by emotions
• OCD on cleanliness ( This is sort of a perk since I won't live in filth?)
• My baking skillz
• I'm a good analyser 
• I am starting to extend my personal bubble
• I do make good muffins/cupcakes
• My weird sense of humour hohohoho
• My desire to be a better person
• My stubborn streak and determination 
• My imagination
• My will to be successful when I'm older

Okay I think that's it. I had to think for awhile. Well it's more than I thought!! 

#MarchMakeover

Kickstart to healthiness

Today was Day 1 of starting blogilates for the year. It's quite late then my intended resolution start, but nonetheless I have started it! And boy, was it tough. My ab strength has somewhat deteriorated. (SOB) The moves that I could do last year was now quite hard to do. BOOOOO HISSS I now have to put in extra effort to get fit! That includes eating healthier!

Speaking of which, I'm right now preparing Avocado and tomato spread on wholemeal bread with boiled broccoli and egg! I plan to turn it into a lifestyle. I want to have a future that does not include obesity related health problems.

Ofcourse I will have to have some YOLO meals I mean come on, you're talking to the girl that puts 3 sugars in her tea.

It's going to be tough guys, but I will get there! >:D

First Day of Work

I am totally nervous.

I went out today with my mum and bro and got tons of stuff JUST for work ( I mean come on really)
Since I am manning the customer service desk, I have to look nice...for once. I got M.A.C makeup, contact lenses, hair gel , tailored black pants, work shoes. Sigh might as well take my whole pay check.

I need to wake up early tomorrow since I have to do an hours worth of blogilates exercise, get dressed, pack my lunch and head out of the door before 8.

Wish me tons of luck guys. Let's hope I don't freak people out at the service desk with lipstick on my teeth.

Tropical Paradise?

It has been about 4 days since I've arrived in Singapore, and boy, has the weather been cray cray hot, humid and sticky. Every night is almost hard to fall asleep. Having one fan isn't enough good lord

Anyways, besides the annoying weather, cheap food has been making me pudgy and for the past few days , internet was hard to find, so I had to put blogilates on a hold (sob) HOWEVER, internet was found yesterday and I did a good 50 minutes butt and ab work out this morning! Tomorrow's gonna be cardio, so I'm pretty unsure how I'll go with sweating in this humid weather.

I've also met my bub hoe qurl and boy has it been great! Bub food adventures has been making me tubby, but that's okay in the Bub Code of Conduct.

I got the greatest Xmas present too! Sharmy gave me Buddy Valastro's (AKA cake boss) baking book, and I'm so gonna cook my way through it ! :)

So right now, I'm just applying for temporary holiday jobs, so I can atleast do something with my time.

SOMEONE PLEASE TAKE ME.

You're never a failure until you quit.

I'm proud to say after 2 weeks of blogilates cardio, I have successfully lost 1.5kg . I have about 8 kg more until my goal weight and I am very determined to do so!

To make this day heaps more exciting, it's The Walking Dead mid season 3 finale tonight! GAHHH feelings shall fly everywhere since the season will continue on Feb 10th next year (sob)

Got tidbits ready tonight such as golden oreos and japanese caramel corn hehe Gonna lay away from the set calories today xD

I don't know about you but... I'm so psyched about the next few weeks!

#DashingDecember

I woke up this morning to my annoying alarm from my phone. What time? Well I set it 9:30 am. And it's a Sunday. You might wonder why dis hoe is waking up considerably early for a lazy sunday. I guess I wanted to train myself not to sleep in? (tough luck) Especially when I slept at 3am earlier on .

I slowly propped myself up and instinctively reached to the nearest contraption that was less than an arm's length. My trusty macbook. aka Nick. I begun my routine by check social networking sites (ugh such a hoe) and lastly, I checked my email. The first message was from a seemingly trustworthy company telling me I'm one of the 20 winners to have won first prize! You see, I'm not one that has the luck of the irish, so "winning" has not become part of my vocabulary. Eyeing the email suspiciously, I decided not to venture into unchartered waters and straight to delete folder it went!

Now, the next email was something I was looking forward to. It was from Cassey Ho aka blogilates founder. It was the December workout calendar! I'm super determined to do this and I really do aim to have a toned body! I'll make sure to track my progress here, if anyone's interested. I went out in shorts yesterday and gosh damn, my legs felt... toner? As I passed by reflective surfaces of shop windows,  I could really see the difference!  I felt more confident. It really made my day. I'm still a long way from over, but I'm prepared to "train insane, or remain the same!"

The smell of bacon is beckoning me (time for some protein!) and I'm off to continue my Harvest Moon adventure.